Another First

I hope everyone had a great Christmas…I had an enjoyable Christmas with family and friends. This was my first Christmas without my mom and it was difficult. Another first without mom, was for my birthday earlier this month. On both of these occasions each year, mom would call and say “happy birthday or merry christmas, my girl, one of my stars I love you” and she would break into the birthday song, mom could sing. I miss that, but I will continue to cherish the memories of those days.

I woke up on both those occasions crying as I remember that I would not hear my mothers’ voice on the other end of a call or see her for Christmas dinner. However, I know “it is well”.

Christmas Eve I attempted to bake Jamaican Christmas cake and for the life of me I could not remember what to put in it, I have my mommy’s industrial cake mixer that she left for my daughter that loves to bake and decided to use it to mix the cake, my shoulder was hurting and I did not feel like going the short cut way of using the box cake mix, I wanted to make it from scratch. I attempted to gather the ingredients and was a total failure at it. Overcome with emotions, I left it and went to bed.

Christmas morning I got up and it was like a flood gate of stuff just open up and again the emotions took hold of me. I cried for what seems like an eternity, then I pulled myself together and went to baking, cooking and getting ready for Christmas dinner. Christmas was one of moms favorite holidays. I think I did a decent job on the cake as everyone said it was good, or maybe they just said it because they wanted dinner, lol! Dinner was a success..

I got my love of baking and cooking from my mom, who got it from my grand aunt. Mom’s potato pudding with the soft top was the best. I am still trying to get it right, lol.. I can hear mom saying “pickney poor the milk on top of it with the butter, do this, do that and you have the soft top” I am a work in progress with that, lol..

While there will be other first without mom, I chose daily to take it one day at a time; living each day to the fullest with the knowledge that she would want me/us to be happy and keep her legacy alive through all we do. Until next time, walk good my peeps!

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